It's an issue that has made me feel so ashamed for so long and I am too embarrassed and ashamed to tell anyone about it.
Trichotillomania. Compulsive hair pulling or skin picking. I know it's not the most pleasant thought, especially if you don't experience it, but I have never felt such shame and loss of control over something that feels like I should be able to just stop.
I can't stop pulling at my hair. It's so embarrassing. I've always had such super thick hair and I can tell in spots that it is starting to noticeably thin. And no matter how hard I try to keep this in check, I'm having the hardest time stopping this awful habit.
After seeing someone else's comment, I realized the start of this problem coincides very closely with me starting Adderall. I had previously taken provigil and nuvigil, but for insurance reasons, had to switch. It seems fairly effective as a stimulant, but if it has any effect on my hair pulling, I want to look in to other options. Honestly, the shame and stress from not being able to stop is weighing heavily on me and I would do almost anything to stop. I don't know if this would be enough reason for insurance to accept a different medication (I have new insurance now too, so who knows).
Please, does anyone else experience this? Am I losing my mind thinking the two are related? I told one person about the hair pulling, my boyfriend, and he didn't seem to understand the impact this has been having on me. I feel so alone and am too embarrassed to bring this up to anyone I know.