Hi guys! Many of you have asked me to write about my Cerebrolysin experience so here it goes:
It was one of the first substances I tried. Back then I only searched for those nootropics that were available in Mexican pharmacies because I wasn't keen on taking stuff from internet sites and I didn't have a credit card.
The first time I tried it, it took me only 2 days to respond. On day 1 I was only aware of a little mood improvement. On the second day it came like an avalanche: smell, recall, creativity, verbal fluency, sleep, relaxation (or non-anxiety), amazing coordination, retention, visuospatial capabilities (which has always been my downside), sight, hearing, all enhanced incredibly. My spelling, diction and vocabulary improved dramatically.
This was before the movie limitless and when I saw it I thought: "HA! The writer has been on this stuff! " Noticed how the "lighting" changes when the main character is on NZT? A yellowish tone where the world is bright and life is great? That's exactly how I feel and see. Plus, It seems as if people react positively to most of what you do: they laugh, show interest, are deeply touched or amazed. A couple of friends told me: WOW! You are ON today!
Then I worked at the piano, my big enemy when it came to hard labour. What a change!! This sense of fatigue and overwhelming tension that appeared for me when learning something as demanding as sight reading was not there or easily dissipated. Then, I learned some of my favorite Chopin pieces.
At that time I trained dual n-back. I worked at it every day and broke my previous record of dual n-5. If I remember correctly I got to pull some 8 or 9 n-back trials. Something interesting happened: past a certain point I didn't feel like I was using my short term memory, instead I started "seeing" lightening patterns that connected the positions and sounds.
I got WAY better at everything. Placebo? Maybe. But all my high scores went through the roof: Rock band battery, guitar, actual guitar, actual piano, violin - I play three instruments now- and, the very best: I grew a lot as a person.
I made huge improvements at getting unstuck from difficult inner experiences. I remember being very nervous once about doing a monologue for a drama class and then...I felt like Neo when he realizes bullets can't hurt him. Yes, I felt the fear, but I could control myself and not get carried away. From then on acting became fun and I was able to consistently get into a state of flow.
When I read, my focus was clear and deep, images flowed from the pages of the novels with ease. I sometimes got the urge to draw -not my strenght at all-. It just felt right, I even drew some patterns in my walls that many people liked.
When I did math I actually SAW numbers in my head and was able to play with the imagery to arrive at the conclusion. Once I was bored in a rehearsal and the director said something about the character: "HE's autistic, he doesn't care about social nuances, he's thinking about 387 X 586, People! ". So...I did the math. Something amazing happened there: I saw the numbers as If I was drawing on a board.
In my head I saw steps, arrows pointing to ways of doing the calculation. Numbers falling or getting big as if it were an educational 3D video. My attention was so strong I could stay with it and I believe that I arrived at some kind of formula which I wanted to try and see if it worked with other multiplications but... I got interrupted.
- NOTE: This kind of brain supercharge happened on a long, high dose cycle, while on deep Ketosis and after working out-
Situations that triggered me were easily managed. For example: Back then I lived with my mom and her bad mood was a big trigger that got us arguing. Once, I was in the middle of a Cere cycle and she came home slamming the door. Again, I noticed my negative emotional reaction which was quickly replaced by clarity. I gave her a loving hug and this words came out of my mouth: "Mom, I'm sorry you're feeling bad. What can I do so that you feel better? What do you NEED? Wanna lay down while I make you dinner or do chores for you?" WOW! THIS was the guy I always wanted to be! Emphatic, loving and ready to do stuff for my loved ones when things were rough. Interestingly, my response to her distress gave her energy and good mood and she did her own chores despite my true intention to pamper her.
Those first years were amazing. I finished on the top of my acting class, got a scholarship my monthly tuition, became class valedictorian (our equivalent) auditioned for an Oxford Drama summer course and landed a place and a scholarship, discovered Paleo/Primal and Crossfit and implemented them in my life, lost weight, started dating without medicating myself with alcohol...the list goes on. I got deep into cognitive behavioral therapy techniques and created deep changes in my thought, feeling and behaving patterns.
Social anxiety? Gone while on. I decided to drop acting, got into Mexico's top university, and devote myself to psychology. I started a little practice as a "coach" because people asked me repeatedly to teach them what I had done to create the changes they saw. At first I did it for free...until I was getting requests for appointments from the friend of a friend and had to charge for my time. To this day that's how I make a living. Now with a psychology degree and much more training in behavioral modification.
This could get too long as I have many anecdotes of how life is amazing for me while on Cerebrolysin. Sadly, the acute effects go away when the cycle ends. Fortunately, I get in better mental shape each time I do it and some gains seem to stay.
From every cycle, my life gets improved by the actions I take on those days on.
This might sound like a fairytale. It's not. They were many problems along the way, and I can't credit all of my growth to Cerebrolsyin. But it sure played an important role.
For me, it's the result of: willingness to change, lots of nootropics, diet, exercise (yoga and functional strength) behavior therapy, lots of reading and tons of support from my family.
Here are some pics of how my body and home have changed since I embarked on self improvement.
I chose not to pursue a master's degree. My quest for mastery is on myself, not a subject.
If anyone is still reading...I'm impressed. Keep on trying stuff and find what works for you.
My hope is that my story inspires you and gets you moving to create the best version of yourself and live a rich, deep meaningful life.